Pie & Mushy Peas

[madaxeman]

I think that's what Jazza was referring to mate.

[kompressaur]

It was GETT1NLOTS (Cary Grant Doppelganger) fault. He made you look at youself in a mirror and save the United Kingdom.

[kompressaur]

sorry no. you just made us all look at ourselves Gettt1n. nothing more. I onlu exist if want me to

[madaxeman]

Komp, I've sent you a PM, could you break the habit of a lifetime and please read it?

[stripteasejada]

phone me komp!!!

[kompressaur]

Srry folks. Honest Axeman i can't. I cant face up to anything. im smoking too much in a desperate attempt to finish things up here. As the world collapses around me i hold onto finishing all these wee things i need to finish (frontpage, bookie and poker reviews, getting folks in here for thenew season) If i look in my pm's i see titles of messages from folks that need addressing and that makes me depressed and i shut down myinternet window and go and play poker and not think about TDP. Ive only got 3 weeks rlly to get things done and im upagainst it.I must be single minded im sorry. Jade i have phoned a couple of times when im good. As the above i cant think of anything else for the next 3 weeks. your website is sdafe though as its on your hosting so its safe. I will sort it for you Jade and im sorry but i cant think of anything else. Bah im sorry folks. I have to go. Axeman i doint have a phone number at he mo as i left my mobile at my sisters and my house phone is broken (to incoming calls) Its the dope. I need to keep smoking though or else i have no will to do anything barr sleep and beg food at my mums. I do aim to sort myself out though but till then my head is just full of things that realy shouldnt matter in my life bu they do as i they went from being an interest to an obssessin. I dont deserve any pals at the end of it all and i see how much it hasnt been worth it but i cant leave the job unfinished and th new football season has become a focal point for it all. I cant even bear to come in gen chat as its too much too think about. I suppose they call it madness.

[kompressaur]

oh ps Jazzaa im sorry about last thursday. I woke up that day with the realiation that my phone was at my sisters after a drunken trip there the previous monday. I was incontactable but stll made myself available if you as to come round. By 7pm i gave up and got mashed and played poker. I was almost blameless but guilty none the less. truth be told i realised on thursday how messed up i am and feared actually to have to get into conversations with people as it would be too real. I'm not much good as a person at the mo so thats why im just gonna finish the job in hand as i almost know what im doing. It productive. I think though if i give up the drink and the smoke im as normal as anyone else ad quite together in whatever situation. The smoke clouds my vision but it also makes 'websitey stuff' interesting even if its some repetative task that takes 18hours. No smoke I just want to go to bed. I have to tay in and finish things so thus i need to smoke. when i dont have to stay in and finish things i wont allow myself the excuse to sit smoking all day anymore. I think i am capable of cutting down and hopefully staying off the supr lager. Take up drinking fosters maybe. no one ever got in bother drinking fosters did they?